How’s that go again?

It’s funny how quickly we get used to an idea or an event – yes even a Liver Transplant that is less than 8 months old. This has happened to me on two occasions now and both times the other person in the conversation was like WTF!? I never even really stop to think about it anymore, when I talk about my transplant; not in the sense that I think it’s old hat or been there done that – that would be ignorant. It’s more along the lines of I am used to talking about it, sometimes I just blurt it out without thinking if the other person I am talking to knows about it.

I have inflicted this information on two of the new folks in the department, not meaning to, but I assure you, inflicted is the right term here. Never once stopping to think they didn’t already know, assuming in fact that wheels of the Gossip machine had squarely rolled over this fact numerous times with everyone within a 10 mile radius. Well, they didn’t know, and I laid it out there like a big, fat meatball from hell. hehehe…. sorry ’bout that Chief.

I find it interesting because honestly I am not even sure I have fully wrestled the beast to bed myself; and then I go and whip out about something that was some-which-way before my transplant. I am definitely getting used to not being sick again though – which is a good thing. I can tell, when I do get sick (like last weekend), it upsets me more than it used to over the last couple of years – mainly because I have this new liver doing its thing, and part of me isn’t quite sure how this arrangement is going to pan out. It’s not like I have any control over it really. Sure I can do things with diet and exercise – but if it decides it wants out, it gets out – not much I can do.

There are days that I still feel like the chimp there, wondering what the hell is going on and how did I get here.

You may ask yourself
What is that beautiful house?
You may ask yourself
Where does that highway GO to?
You may ask yourself
Am I right?…Am I wrong?
You may say to yourself
MY GOD!…WHAT HAVE I DONE?

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